...i could not understand anything i'm feeling since yesterday.... everything's chaotic...i don't know what i should be feeling....it might seem that a lot has been going on..is there??
just a month ago i found out that she got pregnant.. and i didnt give much of a reaction..like it was something i knew was coming....yesterday i went to visit her..and was told that she'd be giving birth tomorrow..(why does it seem like i'm affected with what's going on with her life.)the moment i saw her...everything was on flashback...anyway...tomorrow's gonna happen...and it's already agreed upon that i'll be visiting her by night...
...another thing...i can't pull myself away from the gang anymore(i know that doesn't sound good-i just have a hard time constructing ideas-do hope you understand what i'm trying to say)..i'm not saying it's a bad thing but usually i'm not really attached to a group...just doing things on my own...not really having much care at the world...they just make me feel so blessed....that i couldn't bear to leave even if i have other appointments..(i guess i do have attachment issues)....they're pretty much a big part of my life...it's just i guess i never thought i'd be part of something when i reached college..my mindset was to just finish it(no attachments of any sort included-superfriends, organizations, lovelife etc.)...i could not stand not to see them...i'd rather sleep until tuesday or friday comes....
i don't know what to feel or how to react anymore.....it's december in a few minutes....
i really do wonder what this month's gonna give me.....
you...i wish and pray for your baby to be healthy..
salisi gang...hay.......
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
part 2
..getting back..let the drinking begin..hahaha...i could not elaborate details on what happened during this time..pictures are taken...it speaks for this part..do just visit my facebook account if you manage to find it...and find my dear friends who posted it..hihi..i was shocked that it was already 4am by the time we finished...some were already uhm down? knocked-out?hihi.. but manage to arrange the space were gonna sleep in..and due to where i was lying, i mange to get a good 2 hours straight sleep plus 4 more with waking up in between..hihi
we had spaghetti for breakfast and pancakes for lunch..hahaha....digs went home after the spaghetti part..then dawn after around the pancake part,,..i was supposed to go home before any of those parts...(i was supposed to attend a christening of my friend form another set of friends, but i just couldn't bear to leave...)so i stayed until everyone needs to go home...it was already around 5pm i guess...
..so going home having to ride the jeep,(i decided not to go anymore at my other friend and would just visit her some other time) it stopped at estrella and gave back my money..little that the driver that my stop was just at the next street up ahead..that i can manage to walk from there..so i did..got my money back so it was like a free ride..haha..and i thought it was home finally..the bed..just the bed..and then i got a text from my mom.. telling me that the church's choir was having a mini-concert,..so before i could even lay down..i was already heading towards the other house getting dressed...then while at the concert my mommie shi texted(the one whose baby is being baptized)telling me that alexa was looking for me..so i decided that maybe i could get there stay for a really few minutes then get home before the concert ends..so i did rode the jeepney walking fast with a hint of running..i got there...stayed for about ten minutes i guess...then on my way home again..surprisingly i manage to be there just on time for the last song..and still the day wasn't over yet...they decided on eating outside coz it was already past 9pm...we went by shakey's first..by the time we got there it was already closed..grr..then we headed to yellow cab..(oh i miss salisi gang already!)and finally got to eat...we got home past 11pm..and i went straight to the pc..wishing there were still some online...and yes there was..cez, may and salve but didn't really get to chat much...by the time i decided to sleep it was already 1am...and super duper finally the bed......it felt like years i haven't been able to lie down...and that was it..now my whole body aches again but not as much as last week..and my eyes are tired so i might sleep again after...have a nice day everyone....
i ♥ salisi gang,...
we had spaghetti for breakfast and pancakes for lunch..hahaha....digs went home after the spaghetti part..then dawn after around the pancake part,,..i was supposed to go home before any of those parts...(i was supposed to attend a christening of my friend form another set of friends, but i just couldn't bear to leave...)so i stayed until everyone needs to go home...it was already around 5pm i guess...
..so going home having to ride the jeep,(i decided not to go anymore at my other friend and would just visit her some other time) it stopped at estrella and gave back my money..little that the driver that my stop was just at the next street up ahead..that i can manage to walk from there..so i did..got my money back so it was like a free ride..haha..and i thought it was home finally..the bed..just the bed..and then i got a text from my mom.. telling me that the church's choir was having a mini-concert,..so before i could even lay down..i was already heading towards the other house getting dressed...then while at the concert my mommie shi texted(the one whose baby is being baptized)telling me that alexa was looking for me..so i decided that maybe i could get there stay for a really few minutes then get home before the concert ends..so i did rode the jeepney walking fast with a hint of running..i got there...stayed for about ten minutes i guess...then on my way home again..surprisingly i manage to be there just on time for the last song..and still the day wasn't over yet...they decided on eating outside coz it was already past 9pm...we went by shakey's first..by the time we got there it was already closed..grr..then we headed to yellow cab..(oh i miss salisi gang already!)and finally got to eat...we got home past 11pm..and i went straight to the pc..wishing there were still some online...and yes there was..cez, may and salve but didn't really get to chat much...by the time i decided to sleep it was already 1am...and super duper finally the bed......it felt like years i haven't been able to lie down...and that was it..now my whole body aches again but not as much as last week..and my eyes are tired so i might sleep again after...have a nice day everyone....
i ♥ salisi gang,...
part 1
..i'm not so sure if this post is pure english because sometimes it's more realistic to express things, feelings in the filipino language...anywho..........
..i'm posting bout yesterday and yesterday's yesterday's event..hahaha...
..one bright morning..haha actually i wasn't much on hype mood to wake up early coz i went home late the day before because i was with my oh so uber kulit i so love na superfriends....^_^
so i got really lazy packing my things up with the struggling thought whether i'd still go home or just go straight to latter's event..packed up and ready to go...i accompanied my mom to sm megamall meeting up with a cousin to pick up something...it was a fast transaction...so after it we just got around the mall just then i saw the time..grrr i was late in meeting up with may..(i'm so sorry may)...head on..don't mind if i'm against the flow...we were already late for the the try-outs..but at least manage to catch up with the exercise...or what's left of it...
i'm so sorry but i wasn't really much focused on the try-outs...because i was so excited to get home(i consider salisi as my second family)...as soon as the try-outs ended, may and i were just hyped to get our clothes change and get going...wishing that the place was just on the other side of the road..hahaha...it was a bit traffic getting there...but still did manage to get there...met up with digs and deth(deth did the driving it was cool..astig grabe)hihi...
FINALLY!!! we got there...i missed mads!!!^_^..the gang was complete....and everybody was really hungry so at the instant food was served everyone just grabbed a bite and ate up...after...it was cake time...(Happy Birthday Charm!)but it was also getting late and not everyone was gonna sleep at deth's house..first to go was rael and mads..= (
we walk them out until we found a tricycle they could ride in...going back in just a few minutes martha, debbie and rubie were next to go home...(i haven't even sat with them and just talk or stare at each other -coz i don't really talk-)..the time was just running fast....instead of taking the tricycle out the subdivision...digs offered to drive them out..and luckily may and i got to join them..hahaha(digs was just freakingly fast, it was crazy driving) and we got sounds that just literally blast from the car..it was cool..but all good things come to an end? haha we were at the main road..it ws time for them to go home...another sad moment..= (
i'm cutting it in 2 parts....hihi
..i'm posting bout yesterday and yesterday's yesterday's event..hahaha...
..one bright morning..haha actually i wasn't much on hype mood to wake up early coz i went home late the day before because i was with my oh so uber kulit i so love na superfriends....^_^
so i got really lazy packing my things up with the struggling thought whether i'd still go home or just go straight to latter's event..packed up and ready to go...i accompanied my mom to sm megamall meeting up with a cousin to pick up something...it was a fast transaction...so after it we just got around the mall just then i saw the time..grrr i was late in meeting up with may..(i'm so sorry may)...head on..don't mind if i'm against the flow...we were already late for the the try-outs..but at least manage to catch up with the exercise...or what's left of it...
i'm so sorry but i wasn't really much focused on the try-outs...because i was so excited to get home(i consider salisi as my second family)...as soon as the try-outs ended, may and i were just hyped to get our clothes change and get going...wishing that the place was just on the other side of the road..hahaha...it was a bit traffic getting there...but still did manage to get there...met up with digs and deth(deth did the driving it was cool..astig grabe)hihi...
FINALLY!!! we got there...i missed mads!!!^_^..the gang was complete....and everybody was really hungry so at the instant food was served everyone just grabbed a bite and ate up...after...it was cake time...(Happy Birthday Charm!)but it was also getting late and not everyone was gonna sleep at deth's house..first to go was rael and mads..= (
we walk them out until we found a tricycle they could ride in...going back in just a few minutes martha, debbie and rubie were next to go home...(i haven't even sat with them and just talk or stare at each other -coz i don't really talk-)..the time was just running fast....instead of taking the tricycle out the subdivision...digs offered to drive them out..and luckily may and i got to join them..hahaha(digs was just freakingly fast, it was crazy driving) and we got sounds that just literally blast from the car..it was cool..but all good things come to an end? haha we were at the main road..it ws time for them to go home...another sad moment..= (
i'm cutting it in 2 parts....hihi
Monday, November 15, 2010
NO MORE MR. DESTINY(hihi)
today is such a bummer...
i got home around 8am and had broken sleep till 1pm..
i was struggling whether i'll go to the other house or i'll just stay and sleep the whole day..
but my tummy was making noises so i went by the other house..
and for that i won a trip to sm taytay...
to buy a dozen eggs, some garlic, a kilo of ground pork and beef, detergent, shampoo, drinks...
and i was only to commute....hmmm
grrrrrrr....
there i went....bought everything they need..
while walking round the hypermart...*boom*
i saw him mr. destiny..haha..and with some girl..hahaha
lalalalalalalala..............reminisce....................
i remember the first time i saw him...i was working at Jollibee and at the drive thru station..
..then...there he went by in his uhm Jeep?(not so good with cars)..
he had uhm not so long hair back then..and i guess he was studying at AMA...
and an Iglesia ni Kristo..(talk about stalking..hahaha...hey informations just come to me)
he would always pass by the store at a definite time..(that was around 2 years ago?)
then time passed by i left my work...but....
we seem to see each other around town..and even at sta. lucia..haha
sm taytay...oh anywhere...its like destiny written all over..hahaha
hey i can catch him staring also...cause i'll never would have miss that mestizo chinito guy..hahaha
but...it was always just like that....i never knew his name....even his nickname....
not even the plate of his ride....hahaha
back to the moment..*boom* saw him..and it somehow made me sad...
tsk no more mr. destiny...to think i was almost about to believe in destinies..hahaha
darn..back to daydreaming....hahaha
i got home around 8am and had broken sleep till 1pm..
i was struggling whether i'll go to the other house or i'll just stay and sleep the whole day..
but my tummy was making noises so i went by the other house..
and for that i won a trip to sm taytay...
to buy a dozen eggs, some garlic, a kilo of ground pork and beef, detergent, shampoo, drinks...
and i was only to commute....hmmm
grrrrrrr....
there i went....bought everything they need..
while walking round the hypermart...*boom*
i saw him mr. destiny..haha..and with some girl..hahaha
lalalalalalalala..............reminisce....................
i remember the first time i saw him...i was working at Jollibee and at the drive thru station..
..then...there he went by in his uhm Jeep?(not so good with cars)..
he had uhm not so long hair back then..and i guess he was studying at AMA...
and an Iglesia ni Kristo..(talk about stalking..hahaha...hey informations just come to me)
he would always pass by the store at a definite time..(that was around 2 years ago?)
then time passed by i left my work...but....
we seem to see each other around town..and even at sta. lucia..haha
sm taytay...oh anywhere...its like destiny written all over..hahaha
hey i can catch him staring also...cause i'll never would have miss that mestizo chinito guy..hahaha
but...it was always just like that....i never knew his name....even his nickname....
not even the plate of his ride....hahaha
back to the moment..*boom* saw him..and it somehow made me sad...
tsk no more mr. destiny...to think i was almost about to believe in destinies..hahaha
darn..back to daydreaming....hahaha
post it! quick: wide awake
hmm..just wanna go posting...
it's 3.34am and still awake....
here at my friend's house...
i'm kinda sleepy but still good to go...i miss salisi gang...
and there's still 4 more days before we'll have our classes again..
i don't have any clue on what to do within the 4 days i'll be missin them..
it seems like forever even whenever it's only a day i won't be seeing them..
hmm..i love these people sooo much....
i can't wait to see them again...
my source of happiness....
it's 3.34am and still awake....
here at my friend's house...
i'm kinda sleepy but still good to go...i miss salisi gang...
and there's still 4 more days before we'll have our classes again..
i don't have any clue on what to do within the 4 days i'll be missin them..
it seems like forever even whenever it's only a day i won't be seeing them..
hmm..i love these people sooo much....
i can't wait to see them again...
my source of happiness....
Monday, November 08, 2010
8 months of rehab(hahaha)
lately life makes me sooo emotional......
hay..
a lot of pressure from different people just makes me wanna give up life...
i'm gettin back again to those days where crying isn't enough for me...
that i'd be needing some physical outlet of pain...
it's been 8 months since i last cut myself....
somehow it feels good but...
sometimes i just go craving for it...
like it's something i couldn't resist doing..
within the 8 months, it's been a struggle...
holding a blade over my wrist,...
being withdrawn back with the thought of my friends getting mad at me...
i soo miss my teddy bear.. it's the only one i could tell everything i'm feeling..
cause i don't tell all to my friends...
i may look like i don't have a care in the world sometimes..
just maybe i don't wanna get too attached....
i have troubles taking in a lot of emotion..
a lot of love, a lot of hate, a lot of anger and even a lot of happiness..
it's one reason i'd rather walk by myself..
too much love in a room...
it's not easy to take...(for me that is)
and sometimes i wonder do i even still know what love is.?
I LOVE YOU...
words that sometimes i don't know when it's true..
i have a hard time saying these words to any of my family members..
i don't even hug or kiss my parents...
i love them alright, i just can't personally say it to them..
i am never that affectionate within the family ever since high school..i guess..
and whenever they got a chance to hug me or kiss me..it's like a celebration...
but...regarding my friends....i mean it when i say i love them...
i do sometimes even hug them....
---hugs are soo much better than kisses---(for me)
but i wonder why i could easily hug them and say i love you...
a lot of things are going inside my mind...
this post is already so random..
i wonder if you still understand it...
i try hard to produce a smiling face...
cause i don't want people be concerned (i know its not a good thing)
but i'd rather listen to their stories....
than to make them hear mine...
i'm more of a listener than a speaker...
(i really don't like talking a lot-with serious matters that is-)
oh the post is getting long...
till then................
i'd be editin this later..i'll just look for the worst cut i made hahaha
hay..
a lot of pressure from different people just makes me wanna give up life...
i'm gettin back again to those days where crying isn't enough for me...
that i'd be needing some physical outlet of pain...
it's been 8 months since i last cut myself....
somehow it feels good but...
sometimes i just go craving for it...
like it's something i couldn't resist doing..
within the 8 months, it's been a struggle...
holding a blade over my wrist,...
being withdrawn back with the thought of my friends getting mad at me...
i soo miss my teddy bear.. it's the only one i could tell everything i'm feeling..
cause i don't tell all to my friends...
i may look like i don't have a care in the world sometimes..
just maybe i don't wanna get too attached....
i have troubles taking in a lot of emotion..
a lot of love, a lot of hate, a lot of anger and even a lot of happiness..
it's one reason i'd rather walk by myself..
too much love in a room...
it's not easy to take...(for me that is)
and sometimes i wonder do i even still know what love is.?
I LOVE YOU...
words that sometimes i don't know when it's true..
i have a hard time saying these words to any of my family members..
i don't even hug or kiss my parents...
i love them alright, i just can't personally say it to them..
i am never that affectionate within the family ever since high school..i guess..
and whenever they got a chance to hug me or kiss me..it's like a celebration...
but...regarding my friends....i mean it when i say i love them...
i do sometimes even hug them....
---hugs are soo much better than kisses---(for me)
but i wonder why i could easily hug them and say i love you...
a lot of things are going inside my mind...
this post is already so random..
i wonder if you still understand it...
i try hard to produce a smiling face...
cause i don't want people be concerned (i know its not a good thing)
but i'd rather listen to their stories....
than to make them hear mine...
i'm more of a listener than a speaker...
(i really don't like talking a lot-with serious matters that is-)
oh the post is getting long...
till then................
i'd be editin this later..i'll just look for the worst cut i made hahaha
Sunday, November 07, 2010
Annoying Orange: The Sitcom
here's one of my favorites....i'd like to post the "i'm bored" outtake..
but the video's dark...anyway here's the link for it....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n0kBh_jEJpU
there's still a lot of videos....enjoy....
but the video's dark...anyway here's the link for it....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n0kBh_jEJpU
there's still a lot of videos....enjoy....
Breakfast at Midnight
phew..it's been such a long day...
well yesterday that is....
visited my uncle at the hospital..
(oh i do hope he gets better)
stayed there until late afternoon...
went home to go online for awhile...
then off to my barkada's house...
it's agreed upon that there will be no drinking...
so we just bought food to cook...
it was a breakfast at midnight...
bacon, eggs, ham and bread of course....
and calamansi juice to bring it all down the throat...
but at some point everyone ws just really tired...
so we just went home like 2am in the morning...
good thing ghef was there with her motor....
although i guess i would be safer commuting..hihi
and that was just it...i miss them....
and now..i missed a few episodes of annoying orange...
well here's one..i suggest you watch the others...
it's annoyingly entertaining..i swear..
there's just some videos you'd really die laughing...
and oh...a "lost" "friend?" of mine texted...
it was like 8 months ago the last time she texted....
and news has its own way of coming...
i'm shocked but not so affected....
i wonder why....
coz she's having a baby...
(i wonder what's happenin these days)
oh well,,,that made it easier for me to move on...
there's one more left to move on from...
i do hope its one and would not turn to two...
cause i'm really liking you...
(oh dear... there goes rhyming in my head again)
have a good mornyt folks....
well yesterday that is....
visited my uncle at the hospital..
(oh i do hope he gets better)
stayed there until late afternoon...
went home to go online for awhile...
then off to my barkada's house...
it's agreed upon that there will be no drinking...
so we just bought food to cook...
it was a breakfast at midnight...
bacon, eggs, ham and bread of course....
and calamansi juice to bring it all down the throat...
but at some point everyone ws just really tired...
so we just went home like 2am in the morning...
good thing ghef was there with her motor....
although i guess i would be safer commuting..hihi
and that was just it...i miss them....
and now..i missed a few episodes of annoying orange...
well here's one..i suggest you watch the others...
it's annoyingly entertaining..i swear..
there's just some videos you'd really die laughing...
i'm sorry i'll be posting it in another one, i can't find the file in my pc..
bummer..
bummer..
and oh...a "lost" "friend?" of mine texted...
it was like 8 months ago the last time she texted....
and news has its own way of coming...
i'm shocked but not so affected....
i wonder why....
coz she's having a baby...
(i wonder what's happenin these days)
oh well,,,that made it easier for me to move on...
there's one more left to move on from...
i do hope its one and would not turn to two...
cause i'm really liking you...
(oh dear... there goes rhyming in my head again)
have a good mornyt folks....
Saturday, November 06, 2010
post it! quick: detective conan edition
this is a quick post before i got to my barkada's house....
it's an overnight again..i guess...
anyway.....i'm happy at the moment because.............
i finally found a player that could read the codecs to produce the english sub.....
it's a Detective Conan movie by the way...
i just loove Shinichi Kudo...and all those mystery files of course.....
and yes i do hope it would be sufficient to keep from falling apart...
cause something is definitely coming my way...
..to i'm not sure yet if it would break my heart....
(its been a long time since i last felt this way)
..but right now....i can tell it would....
that's just about it......
it's an overnight again..i guess...
anyway.....i'm happy at the moment because.............
i finally found a player that could read the codecs to produce the english sub.....
it's a Detective Conan movie by the way...
i just loove Shinichi Kudo...and all those mystery files of course.....
and yes i do hope it would be sufficient to keep from falling apart...
cause something is definitely coming my way...
..to i'm not sure yet if it would break my heart....
(its been a long time since i last felt this way)
..but right now....i can tell it would....
that's just about it......
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