(just before this post i told you i only like people never love)
-she came along.........
i can't post her face yet...i just wanna share how much i'm happy and disheartened to hmm have? her in my life....
i'm happy in every bit of the way...it may seem so fast for me to tell around that i love her...
i just don't well freakin care what people say....you just can't define your feelings.. it ain't supposed to be described or explained..it's supposed to be felt....
i have never felt my heart this happy before,,,well except for the time i met Salisi Gang..but hey..it's a different case...
i know i don't know her fully yet...but c'mon...do you really know every bit about someone like your sister, brother, mother, father or your friend...???guess not...
but thing is i never thought that there could really be someone that "i knew i loved before i met"...i just realized how much my dream was similar with the moments i'm with her...
i love her...i don't really know why...but i love her...
..disheartening....i only got one more month at school...and thing is i saw her a month ago and got to know her personally two weeks ago...it just makes me cry everytime a day pass by...i have never cried this much for someone..it just hurts to know that i got to know her in such a complicated time... i had really no intention of making her know me or be friends with her...but i just don't know what happened and how it ended up like this...but don't get me wrong...i'm happy...
i just don't understand why just now...i just know that when that time comes...it would freakin hurt me...i just hope she' won't feel the same though...
it's kind of funny..cause with only one more month she got me to break my only promise and rule to myself,..(aside from me not to cut my wrist again--it's almost a year--)
--after my last girlfriend(which was hmm 4 years ago??)..i promised not to have another gurl in my life anymore..i set out the rules..that i could only limit myself to like one but never to fall in love with one...hmmm....
--i'm emo i know-- that's why i don't know if i really deserve to have her in my life..
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