YES or NO

a long time since..i last blog....was just really stubborn to do so..

got to blog cause i saw this movie and...

eeeekk...hahahaha... im lovin it...

she looks just like her..the smile and everything..

gosh..just cant stop staring at her..plus she's a blogger...hahaha

the story's cute...it's simple but would definitely make me want to watch it over and over again..hahaha

so in love with it..the characters are cute and crazy...

and all throughout all i remember is her..haha

that's just about it..back to being stubborn..

Mid Year

well... supposed to be... i should have made this post between june 30 and july 1..but due to i don't know why i didn't..i just made it now....


♫lalalalalalala♫

http://soduk.blogspot.com/2010/12/2010-one-last-post.html

the link  above is the last post i made before 2010 ends..and what was i to expect of 2011..
and true..everything was a surprise...looking back...i luckily found an ojt spot with the help of my friend Mads..
i got to take part in the feuals and get to play basketball again...i graduated...=)..finally..hahaha...
i met knew people that adds up to my lists of friends.....and.....................
i met someone..who well..hmm somehow changed my life...and still keeps on making me think on what's gonna happen next...cause...my someone's very unpredictable...

half of the year has already passed...and ooohh... MONTE CARLO ♥....
i still don't know what's in store for me for the rest of the year....
job..life..friends...family...someone...

and i'm sort of lacking the urge to blog...oh well....

Taylor Swift - The Story Of Us

DARN IT!!!...wanted to post this on my facebook...but something just holds me back...
the lyrics freakin match my situation as of the moment,...and it's freakin killin me!!!!
there's so many things i wanna say..but when your already there..
i just go blank...and struggle so much finding ways how to say it......
=/

Blogger Revisited

hahahahaha....

it's been almost 3months since i last blogged..

well...i really don't know how to start this again but....

that's just how life is..sometimes you find yourself at the utmost top..then suddenly without any warning you'll find yourself falling fast to hit the bottom....what's the connection??heck i don't know...hahaha.. i just typed it out to make this somehow long...hahahaha..out of words..out of rhyme..then again maybe next time...

Vitamin CC

just when i thought i forgot how to or what is love.....
(just before this post i told you i only like people never love)



-she came along.........

i can't post her face yet...i just wanna share how much i'm happy and disheartened to hmm have? her in my life....
i'm happy in every bit of the way...it may seem so fast for me to tell around that i love her...
i just don't well freakin care what people say....you just can't define your feelings.. it ain't supposed to be described or explained..it's supposed to be felt....
i have never felt my heart this happy before,,,well except for the time i met Salisi Gang..but hey..it's a different case...
i know i don't know her fully yet...but c'mon...do you really know every bit about someone like your sister, brother, mother, father or your friend...???guess not...
but thing is i never thought that there could really be someone that "i knew i loved before i met"...i just realized how much my dream was similar with the moments i'm with her...
i love her...i don't really know why...but i love her...
..disheartening....i only got one more month at school...and thing is i saw her a month ago and got to know her personally two weeks ago...it just makes me cry everytime a day pass by...i have never cried this much for someone..it just hurts to know that i got to know her in such a complicated time... i had really no intention of making her know me or be friends with her...but i just don't know what happened and how it ended up like this...but don't get me wrong...i'm happy...
i just don't understand why just now...i just know that when that time comes...it would freakin hurt me...i just hope she' won't feel the same though...
it's kind of funny..cause with only one more month she got me to break my only promise and rule to myself,..(aside from me not to cut my wrist again--it's almost a year--)
--after my last girlfriend(which was hmm 4 years ago??)..i promised not to have another gurl in my life anymore..i set out the rules..that i could only limit myself to like one but never to fall in love with one...hmmm....
--i'm emo i know-- that's why i don't know if i really deserve to have her in my life..
♥

Crazies...

---just so you know it's a small bear with a tiny bear plus a rose and a letter....

It was our last day at our OJT site...and i was crushing on one of the hr there...
i'm only confident in blogging this cause i know this won't reach her in any way...hahaha
it's been a long time since i've done something crazy like this...
it felt weird when i walked inside Blue Magic...
and buying a rose and setting it up...

then again...i still like a lot of people...hahaha...
but i guess i already forgot how to love....
it's valentines tomorrow...i always have classes during this occasion,.
supposedly i don't have one tomorrow but due to joining the institute's basketball team..
we have our game tomorrow...
oh...i wonder....when will i be able to spend it with someone....hmmm...
Happy Hearts Day....

no time to waste..only stress to face.

...hi!!! it's been a week i guess...since i last log in.. oh dearness.... my whole week and the days to come are soo booked,,, i have less time to do things for myself...anyway...i like it this way better...it's the only time i feel really alive....stress makes me feel pain...both physically and emotionally as well as mentally too i guess....although there are some consequences to it..with me being busy...yes i have less time for myself...but i don't mind much...it's having less..hmm no time for me to be with my friends....and even my family....i miss spending time with all of them....they just take all that stress whenever i see their smiles...hear their laughs....hmmmmm...
...anyway....i'm getting crazier by the minute...a few hours ago..i saw her...the one i suspect from my dream...everytime i get a glimpse of her...it's just...hmmmm..seemed like a dream...so peaceful...and hmmm....lately... there's this someone that just makes my heart literally skip not just a beat but beatS....hahahaha....i just can't decode the person...it's very disturbing in a way i'm very much hooked to what's about to happen...oh well....tomorrow gonna be another day to look forward to..i guess....hmmmm.............
darn it!i'm so confused!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!all these feelings...all these thoughts..........
i just don't know what's real anymore....dear God...please give me enough strength to face all these challenges...and enough wisdom to make the right decisions....and a lot of You to make it a good day...

books makes my wallet go pale

hahahaha......it really does.....
i've already bought around 8 books (second-hand) mostly at Booksale for the last 3 months...
but...i haven't read any of it...is this some kind of an obsession????hahaha
i wonder when i'll be able to start reading any of it...
my whole month's fully booked as well as for the first two weeks of february..
i can feel muscle pains all over the body...and it feels good haha coz i know i'm alive??
i can't help it but be so emo..
this post's gonna be a bit random...
i've been facebook free for one week now(it's feels like i'm doing time in a rehab center)
hahaha...anyway..it feels great though knowing my life doesn't revolve around it. i missed writing senseless stuff (i consider my poems senseless hahaha -emo-) i just can't find any hmm inspiration for me to write anything at all. sometimes.... i don't believe in love anymore..is that sad??
i don't know...i feel like life with people is a come and go situation, like everyone else is just passing thru...i wonder if i'll be able to love again...it's not much of a big deal..
it seems i'm taking everything for granted again...

2011 will i meet someone who'll change my thoughts????