...i could not understand anything i'm feeling since yesterday.... everything's chaotic...i don't know what i should be feeling....it might seem that a lot has been going on..is there??
just a month ago i found out that she got pregnant.. and i didnt give much of a reaction..like it was something i knew was coming....yesterday i went to visit her..and was told that she'd be giving birth tomorrow..(why does it seem like i'm affected with what's going on with her life.)the moment i saw her...everything was on flashback...anyway...tomorrow's gonna happen...and it's already agreed upon that i'll be visiting her by night...
...another thing...i can't pull myself away from the gang anymore(i know that doesn't sound good-i just have a hard time constructing ideas-do hope you understand what i'm trying to say)..i'm not saying it's a bad thing but usually i'm not really attached to a group...just doing things on my own...not really having much care at the world...they just make me feel so blessed....that i couldn't bear to leave even if i have other appointments..(i guess i do have attachment issues)....they're pretty much a big part of my life...it's just i guess i never thought i'd be part of something when i reached college..my mindset was to just finish it(no attachments of any sort included-superfriends, organizations, lovelife etc.)...i could not stand not to see them...i'd rather sleep until tuesday or friday comes....
i don't know what to feel or how to react anymore.....it's december in a few minutes....
i really do wonder what this month's gonna give me.....
you...i wish and pray for your baby to be healthy..
salisi gang...hay.......
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